My dad credits this as his favorite photo of me.
When I was younger, I was very socially anxious. I hated crowds,
hated attention, hated being up on stage. In preschool there was this
little Halloween show that we put on, and man, I did not want to do that
shit, let me tell you. All those parents watching me sing some stupid
song? Nah, that ain't me.
But I was forced to, and I was pissed about it My dad was in the
audience, taking pictures and enjoying the show. In that moment, I
swear, my tiny four year old was pure rage and resentment. I felt the
word "fuck" years before I knew what it was.
My dad pointed the camera at me, and I turned, and I looked. I gave
him the look that summed up all the anger. all the absolute fury that
was brewing inside me. He says that he had never before seen such a
perfect depiction of total and complete hatred. In his four year old son
To this day whenever I get pissed, he calls me "Buzz Lightyear'
I felt the word "fuck" years before I knew what it was.